Not Such a Good Day
Today wasn't a good day, we went to the hospital twice :(. First time, we went there to check Carissa since she has a little Jaundice. Went to the hospital for the blood test and all that. She's still in the border line of jaundice, so we will bring her back again on Monday and then we will see her pediatrician.
After that we went back, everything was fine... Mandy, Andrea and Dietz came by. They saw Carissa only for a few minutes because I have to feed her. (Thank you guys for all the wonderful gifts - we already read her the two books and she will listen to the music soon). Once I'm done feeding her, she suddenly threw up all the milk that she just consumed and mixed with blood. So I was freaking out and we called first nurse and rushed her to the ER. I guess I didn't think about maybe my breast was crack and bleed so she got it from me. All the way to the ER, she was fine.. she was sleeping the whole time. Anyway spent too much time at the ER room, I finally checked my breast and yes there was a crack and dry blood on the niple (sorry... TMI).
We finally went back home around 5:30-ish, I called the La Leche League (the breastfeeding support group). And one of the volunteer who lives in Ames told me how it's so common that the baby suck a crack niple and swallow blood, and ended up throwing up blood. Stupid ER doctor! I am a firm believer of breastfeeding... seeing my baby drinking formula makes my heart broken. I think breastfeeding is the best for babies and i feel so much closer to my baby when I feed her. I cried so many times when I saw her taking a bottle of formula because I don't want her to throw up blood again.
I started to pump, good thing when I pump there's no blood. Tho the doctor told me to pump and dump, I still feed her the breastmilk that I pumped. She's okay now, she hasn't throw up since then. I will pump till my niple heals, ugh.... I love my baby so much that I don't even know what to do! :(. My heart broken into pieces seeing her cry because she's hungry and she doesn't like the formula.
Hopefuly tomorrow will be a better day for us. We still have to go back to the ER to give them some update about her. I will not tolerate that dr. who told me to stop giving my breastmilk to her!
Anyway here are some pictures from today... you can click on the image to view more pictures.
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